Beclouded

I lick my finger and hold it up
Ahhh, there you are wind!
Today you blow north
Tomorrow you blow south
If on the third day you blow west are you still the wind?

This is who I am
This is who I’m not
Which is me and which is not?

Boarders, barriers encompass the mind
this is real and this is not

Thought and not though
are both not equally invested?

I used to know
Now no longer not

What’s Important?

One day Joe was walking down the street and he noticed a nice little dinner. He wondered why he’d never noticed this quaint little place before. The dinner was crowed with a splendid vibe but not overly crowded. He noticed they had many of his favorite meals on the menu, including ice cream!

Joe walked up to the entrance and grabbed the cold silver door handle and tugged the door open. The dinner was teaming with people and the fragrance of coffee and bacon peppered the air. The clamoring of dishes could be heard coming from the kitchen and many conversation filled the air. The kitch design made the place feel hip and all the energy made it feel alive. “This must be the place”, Joe speculated.

He stopped at the host stand to grab a seat and briefly flirted with the cute hostess before she brought him to his seat. As he sat pondering over the menu he heard the cacophony of all those around him. As he sat there, trying to look over the menu, he began to realize he couldn’t hear what anyone was saying. All he heard was noise, that couldn’t be made clear. For a moment he wondered if a different language was being spoken but as he intently listened he knew that wasn’t it.

As he lifted his gaze from the menu to those in the place he quickly realized he couldn’t see well either. “What in the hell? Well, maybe my blood sugar level is low and I just need something to eat”, he thought. Somehow he flagged down his waiter and ordered. His order arrived and he ate, and the food was absolutely amazing. It was the tastiest food; as a matter of fact, it would have probably been the best meal he ever had if it weren’t for his hearing and vision problems.

The following day Joe went to see the doctor and explained his problem. The doctor did the whole doctor exam thing that doctors do. However, he didn’t find anything wrong and sent him on his way with a clean bill of health.

Out of curiosity, Joe returned to the restaurant following the exam but the same thing occurred! His vision was blurred and he couldn’t hear anything! He thought: Seriously, what the heck is going on with me?”

Totally frustrated Joe sought alternative help. Years came and went to no avail; nobody was able to fix his problem. He continued to yearn to see and hear the people of the dinner.

One evening while at the dinner Joe finally had it. He ripped the hearing aids from his ears and tore off his glasses and smashed them. Bewildered and in despair he sat there with his face in his hands. Almost like magic Joe could hear the people around him. Ever so slowly he lifted his face from his hands. He could see too! He flagged his waiter down with great exuberance and ordered his meal.

As he ate all the noise and people of the restaurant quickly faded away and he enjoyed his meal.

One Thought, Right Thought

Someone might have these thoughts: Who am I and why do I matter? I’m only one person what difference do I make? What difference does anything I do make?

He then bends down and picks up a stick.

There are 7 billion people on this planet and each and everyday it moves and it all happens.

If one action doesn’t doesn’t matter how does it all happen? One thought ate a time, in a moment; one step at a time, in a moment.

Maybe there was once a single atom that asked such a question but here we are and here the universe is.

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I think we do not know and understand the importance of one thought in one moment. Thus we conflate lack of understanding with it doesn’t matter.

These moments string together with the collision of time. Bang, bang, bang the moments go. Each nothing but each is absolutely everything.

If we actually think thoughts like that in the first lines we should reflect to see how life works. This shows how powerful right thoughts are.

Emotional spasm

1) Placing inordinate emphasis on the most trivial matters by reacting to shallow momentary emotional spasms are not the best grounds for developing any sort of deeper fulfillment in life and leads one to continual momentary dissatisfaction.

2) I say explore life’s deeper values and exercise the governance (not blind governance) of all deeper values in ones life while rejecting the shallow emotional reactions. Just the starting point to any sort of meaningful life: practice.

3) Balance and moderation in all things is an art: habit.

Freewill?

We have freewill do we? Who is the one thinking our thoughts? Is freewill a continued state of giving unintentional attention to the thoughts that arise and then getting lost in them? Is freewill impulsively acting out however we feel? Wait, did I choose to feel this way at this moment and think this thought? Is freewill blaming others for making us feel this way? How can they make me feel this way if I am free?

Today is the day of change I declare! I act on my own accord and with complete autonomy. Wait, why did I just do that, again?

Them or a Me (what else could I be?)

To them I am a them but to me I am a me. However, if me is a them how could I be a me? For me is all that me can be, you see? Or will me always be a them? But I am not a them because I am a me! For if them knew I was a me, why would they say with such an non-fluctuating degree that I am them and not a me. How could them say such unkind words to me? For if me is a them and them a me shouldn’t they see that both them and me are a me? For me fear them cannot see a me, for if they did, how could they do such a thing to me? Perhaps, next time you look at them remember me.

Life, death, and Consciouness

What is life? What is death? What is consciousness? To me these questions are almost meaningless; let me try to explain what I mean. What is needed for the creation of fire?  According to reference.com ““The three elements that are needed to start a fire are oxygen, heat and fuel.Those three elements are part of the fire triangle, which illustrates the interdependence of the ingredients that are necessary to start and sustain a fire.” Fire merely arises, forms, and falls; arises, forms, and falls when the causes and conditions are met. Take away one of these elements and there is no longer fire. Now, if one of the elements of fire is missing is the fire “dead”? It is only dead if we are speaking in a very specific manner. All of our notions of what is and what is not are only relative to what we prescribe them to and outside the particular context those definitions they are meaningless. Right now I think I hear “No, duh”!!! Let us quickly go back to the fire example. We – or I should say “I” – concluded that life and death of our imaginary fire is illusory for if we look deeply we will always see that there is, and will always be, fire when the time is right. It does not die nor is it born it is there, waiting.

 

Life is always, and I mean always, in a continued flux. According to string theory (the leading contender for a unified theory of everything) states that a small vibrating “string” was a cause for creating our universe. Life is, was, and will be created in a state of continual flow and movement. It is not dead or alive it is moving. In our present of “being” we think of life and death because we see ourselves as a solid and fixed through our state of consciousness. This is an utterly false conception of who and what we actually are (or who we think that we think we are 😛 ). Back to our fanciful bonfire again. You and your friends are sitting outside on a cold brisk evening and decide to rouse a fire to warm your mitts. After you have the fire well stoked you and your friends can observe that the flames of the fire are ever shifting, moving and it is never really the “same”  flame from moment to moment, but it is always a fire; similarly, our consciousness works in the same manner. We perceive ourselves as being this constant entity like the word fire. Our consciousness is the “who”, or where this “who”, we think we are arises from. Upon close examination we will see that our consciousness is kind of a “holding spot” to “light” up some internal process within our body. Like the elements that make a flame and a fire everything within our body is in continuing flux. An itch here and there, our minds shifting from one thought to the next, blood flowing, heart beating, we are always fidgeting and shifting our positions and so on. Our consciousness only appears to be fixed to the untrained observer. But is it really? Is it really hard and concrete? Upon close examination of our own conscience what begins to emerge is that when the causes and conditions have been met it will arises, some might say this is something from nothing but I believe this too is a false notion – nobody really knows what the cause and conditions are for consciousness or what consciousness actually is. Before all the causes and conditions are met consciousness is not dead or alive it is there, waiting (1). Because we are untrained at observing we duped and fooled into believing that we are fixed, as a result we fear, hate, have greed, and become victims. From this confused state we linearly piece together our whole life and create our story (a question to reflect upon, what in life is linear?). We are surmised and bamboozled into notions of birth and death but these are absurdly narrow views; additionally, these terms only apply in the most limited context.

 

As we begin to see life in a few of the manners described the ideas of life and death fade and what is left is beauty and wonder; we begin to see everything in flux and moving about; we begin to see who and what we really are. Our feelings, finally, are just feeling that arise and fall. Our feelings are not who we are but are fleeting and temporarily based on causes and conditions and habitual tendencies. We are free because we are no longer tethered and enslaved to these false conceptions of reality (being free doesn’t mean these feelings and emotions are no longer present) . One could say that for that first time we truly get to exercise our liberties as human beings.

 

I encourage you not to trust or believe anything that was explained but examine for yourself. More than likely it will take time and practical experience. At very least you can begin to read, while practicing, and learn intellectually while simultaneously gaining experiential knowledge. As you learn, both intellectually and experimentally, this paradigm that was spoken about will begin to be clear.

 

The best way that I know how to begin observing is by meditation. The type of meditation is simply sitting there watching things come and go in a non reactive manner. Here is a list of a few applications that can assist you with your practice (below). If you are looking for some book hop on the Google machine and do a little research and just jump in.

 

  • Buddhify
  • Calm (one that I’ve used in the past)
  • Headspace
  • Mindbody Connect
  • Meditation Timer Pro
  • Omvana
  • Smiling Mind
  • Take A Break
  • Insight Timer (one that I use now). If you join look me up: James from Lehigh Acres

 

1) I said, “consciousness is not dead or alive it is there, waiting.” I wanted to clarify because, right now, I don’t give much credence to the notion of consciousness as something that is physical or has its own identity, though I do like to toy around with that idea. I was using that term “there, waiting” more abstractly. There is a thesis on panpsychism that some might be interested looking into if you are exploring various areas of conciseness.

What Is Emptiness And Why It Can Change The Way We See Reality

A little under two years ago I underwent a journey of change but when I reflect and try and recall the moment it began it becomes almost impossible to locate. How about you? Can you recall a major life changing moment in your life? Can you truly pinpoint the day/moment? Think about it for a second, can that idea that brought about change really stand independent and be pinned down? When I really start to examine and look for that moment closely it begins to become unstable and shifts further into the past and every other direction. I think, “Oh, actually this happened first.” I then quickly realize it was preceded by an early event, and I am going to speculate that if you look hard it will become increasingly difficult to pin down your moment.

So what is emptiness anyway? You may vaguely recall hearing it tossed around in old kung-fu movies, or maybe you heard the term no self. Emptiness is lacking an intrinsic independent self, or in other words no “I” can be located, no self. If you think think there is an independent self I will ask you to locate it. Where is it? Where is this “I” that we so often speak of? Point to it. Your brain? What region in your brain does it reside? Can your brain operate completely independent? Is it your whole body then? Can you live completely independent (in a space of nothingness)? What about aspects that allow you to live, like air? So maybe this “I” is the air, but Co2 is converted to O2 by our trees, which live because the soil, water, sun and a wide variety of other ecological and biological factors, and on it goes.

If you sit down and ponder emptiness for a moment it really is easy to see and understand intellectually. What begins to emerge is a vast interdependence. Seeing that you cannot live independently; seeing zero degrees of separation between us and everything else; seeing that “I” becomes blurred; seeing that there really is no self and when you try and locate it (the self) it shifts upon examination.

All our thoughts, feelings, ideas, and our very being are not really ours if you look at it through the lens emptiness. Our feelings belong to our ancestors that have been passed down through the generations. The feelings and emotions we carry are their feelings and emotions; we carry their torch. Our thoughts and ideas are formulated by tens of thousands of factors, some internal but most are external factors. Just ponder that for a moment… Again, this is very easy to see and understand intellectually but merely knowing this for a moment here and there will not really change anything. What will alter your life and create change is practice seeing permanently through this paradigm. I enjoy seeing life this way as I know I am not simply believing something that may or may not be true. I can validate this paradigm with direct personal experience. As you begin practicing and begin see the world through this lens more and more you will have more love, compassion, understanding, empathy, feelings of well being, connectedness, be slower to anger, and a variety of other wholesome attributes arise naturally (don’t expect permanent changes overnight).

A couple of ways to start practicing.

  • Start every morning out with 5 minutes of analytical meditation (purposeful concentration)
  • While driving contemplate on the roads while driving: think about absolutely everything that is involved in making the roads: city planning, engineering (blacktop and cement are inventions too), man hours to make and maintain the roads.
  • Contemplate while eating about the entire process of having this food in your house: from seed to home.
  • Walk in nature and contemplate on your breath and everything involved with providing you oxygen: trees, soil, bug, insects, water, sun, seeds, storms, and so on.
  • Have a mindfulness bell chime , every hour, half-hour, or less. Upon the chime contemplate on emptiness.